Dear Victim...

Let's not sugar coat this so let me just explain off bat...I'm hard headed, spoiled, and have very bougie tendacies. I can be a bit needy and I throw temper tantrums when I don't get my way. I like to be the only one cause I don't share; hence, I don't play well with others. I hate arguing so when we get into an argument it isn't over until I get the last word. Sorry. I like communication so speak your mind because I will at all times. I like to ask questions, lots of them. I admit some are dumb but I still like answers. Got it? I am a sucker for romance♥, so if you wanna send me flowers or leave me a love note; you'll win me over! I like to kiss your cheek for no reason and hold your hand when you are driving; a silent way to let you know I care. I will never tell you the sky is orange, you know why? Its called lying so don't do it to me. If you're ever mad with me or vice-versa, I rather it not just blow over, work it out. I like chances, but don't abuse the privelage. What's in it for you? Well if u can put up with me, you'll be on cloud 9. I pinky promise.


Love Always,

Breezi F.

It's My Anniversary

A year ago, I wrote my first entry on The World of Breezi F Baby.

Time flies by when you're having fun!

I just want to take the time out to thank all of my followers for rocking with me for a year! Thanks for the laughs, advice, and your opinions. To all my new followers, thank you for following me and I won't dissapoint! I do my best to entertain and by the looks of it, I have been doing a good job! You have entered my world and I appreciate you all. Love you guys, no homo(That's for Derrek lol).

Outie♥
Breezi F.

Bring it Back....

I am so obssessed with the television show, The Game and I so wish they would get on to making newer episodes. Although the CW did cancel the series, there are rumors that BET is going to pick up the series. One problem....: THE ORIGINAL CAST MIGHT NOT RETURN!!! =( Which would suck and may cause people, like myself to not watch because I have ADD. LOL Seriosuly though, I hope it all works out so I can see what is going on with Girl Melanie and Derwin and the aftermath of Kelly punching Tasha!! I mean, don't act like you not obssessed, you know this show is the bomb diggity (Hells, yes I said bomb diggity). This has to be one of the best comedy-drama BLACK sitcoms that has held my attention in a looooong time. I finally caught up on all the seasons thanks to BET airing the same episodes and marathons 50-leven times a day! lol So IDK what is going on but The Game producers, cast, and whomever let's get to it!!



&& Speaking of The Game, I soooo envy their relationship: Derwin & Girl Melanie lol

Outie♥

Breezi F.

Giiiirl it's a PhotoShoot..

"Whaaaat? You had a baby two weeks ago?"
Yuuuup! (in my Trey Songz voice)

Outie♥
Breezi F.

Interesting Vids

Say it isn't so Nicki.....


Never really heard of him but his voice is AMAZiNG!!!

Introducing Aaliyah

Finally. After all of the drama, anticipation, the highs and lows, my daughter Aaliyah made her debut. She was born on Tuesday, 10.06.09 at 8:44 pm. I fell in love all over again. She is absolutely beautiful and definitely a blessing from God. I am so happy to have her in my life, you guys just don't understand. Liyah and Gavin are my heart! Many people have been asking when am I going to talk about my experience through my blog, and now I finally have time. LOL.

See, what had happen right, Liyah was two days late and I wasn't going to play the waiting game!! So Monday afternoon, My mom, Gavin, and Myself went on a walk for about 45 minutes because they say walking helps out with labor. After my walk all I had was sore thighs, wack. I wanted contractions. So I googled ways to go into labor and I kept hearing people say either sex or Castor Oil. I wasn't in the mood for sex and had no clue what the fack Castor Oil was so I dug a little deeper. A lot of women tried it and went into labor shortly with no problems so I got the bright idea to go buy some Castor oil and see what happens. Sidenote: Castor Oil is this thick, molasses, disgusting medicine that is used when people are constipated lol! So anyways, I bought it came home and mixed two tea spoons with some orange juice. After I downed it, I felt nothing. In mind I was like this shit ain't gonna work!! So I left it alone. Later that night, Acey (my partner) and I went to the movies to Surrogates (Btw, was a good movie!!) and ten minutes into the ending of the movie I started to feel pains at around 11:16 pm. Another ten minutes later I felt the same cramps and realized these are possible contractions! So by the time we got home I was still timing myself and realizing they were roughly ten minutes apart. I called my doctor and was told if they get to five minutes apart to come in. So we went to bed and at that moment I was thinking, I ain't really going into labor cause I can sleep through these. This was around 1 am. I woke up later at 4am because of pains and i know this had to be REAL! I called the nurse and she advised me to come on in. After I was examined and monitored, they decided to keep me and prepare for delivery cause I was at 4cm dilated.

Hours later, I was getting closer to having her and time was going by slow. Contractions were closer together and very strong. I did have an epidural but that thing wore off and I was starting to feel everything! We had a few scares because Liyah's heart rate would go from 125 beats then drop to as low as 90 even lower. With her fluctuating heartbeat, the doctors new she had to be born ASAP. I was given an oxygen mask and even had my bed flipped so my head was near the floor and feet straight up, to get the heart rate going and to prevent the cord from going around her neck. I was about 8cm dilated and they expected her arrival in the next hour.

Acey went to grab a drink and my mom had already left because she had to get Gavin then my nurse went to go check on other patients. Perfect time for everyone to dip because I had to PUSH!!! It was time! I forgot I had a nurses button so I sat and cried through each contraction! Like I felt it all. Finally my weeping caught someones attention and I had like ten doctors and nurses in my room yelling to tell me I gotta push. I didn't want to at all, especially since Acey wasn't there but I had to. After a forced push, Acey was there to my right holding my hand, "Push babe! You have too!!" I felt relieved but i was still scared. After a few pushes, I saw everyone face with a look of concern and I realized the heartbeat machine thingy wasn't beeping. I asked Acey what was wrong but he said nothing was but then he asked Tyler, the nurse what happened. Liyah's heartbeat was very low so I had to get her out! Acey didn't want to get me worked up even more cause I was gone freak the fack out but I knew I had to get her out. Three pushes later, she was here. Alive and healthy.

It's been five days since I had her and life has just got 100 times better. I have two beautiful, healthy kids and a supportive partner. I'm happy that things are going right and I can't wait for what lies ahead. This was a blessing and one experience I'll never forget. I love everyone who has been there and didn't walk away when I needed them the most.

Outie♥

Breezi F.

Internet Everlasting Love?

Internet dating seems to be all the rage now-a-days or is it? Some people think it is desperate and only ugly people do it but lately it seems to become more popular. I was talking to my friend the other day, we'll call her "Britney" to protect her identity, yeah Britney, I like that lol. Anyways, Britney told me she was going to meet up with a guy whom she met off of a dating website. When she told me I literally LOL'd because I could just imagine her online dating profile. Now Britney is far from unattractive and I can't imagine it being difficult for her to find a date. Her reasons happen to be that it is hard to find a "good guy" now-a-days and just finding the time to play the whole cat and mouse game. So putting up a profile, giving a few of your interests and your best photos happen to be more convenient. I supported her because hey, to each its own but I did advise her to be careful. Internet dating is the same as meeting a stranger off of the street; KEEP YOU GUARD UP. Also I advise her to make sure your first date is public in case you need witnesses or a scapegoat. LOL Besides the downfall, I mean I guess there are some positives because there are a lot of people who do the Internet dating and have actually had successful relationships, hell even marriage. Not all people are the pervs, lonely and ugly that hide behind the computer stereotype that is most common with Internet daters. I admit I have met people off of Myspace years ago, ahem, and I have had my share of disappointments. Either they were way off from the pictures or just turned off by their personality. So I really don't think it is for me but then again when I get approached by guys I can get the same results as the guys off the net. So would you ever date off the Internet or maybe you have? Details!? I wanna know your opinion or success/horror stories!??

Outie♥
Breezi F.

Only Fux With Bad Bitches, No Homo

Round the same time frame last year, I blogged about the bad ass barbie bitch, Nicki Minaj. Since then she has been on tour with Young Money, dropped her latest Mixtape Beam Me Up Scotty, and has inked a deal with Young Money Records. Didn't I tell you to watch out for her!? Listen to Breeze. Follow Nicki on twitter because she is doing a club/college tour jumpoff and you need to be there all the Harajuki Barbies, Kens, and Stud Muffins.....

http://www.nickiminajfans.com/

Outie♥

Breezi F.

My New Fave Boot

Of course they're Steve Maddens. Step ya boot game up.
I got them via Macy*s for a mere $129.00.

Paired with my new leather bomber jacket, DOPE. Oh do I love fall fashion.

Outie♥

Breezi F.

Quote of the Day/ Inspirational Words

"Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."

Deuteronomy 31:6

I am not a truly religious person; like I live my life according to the bible and I am the first in the pew on Sunday mornings. I am not perfect. I have anger issues and violent rampages. I cry a lot and find myself in very critical situations. I don't think rationally. I know that. Just as well as I know I have a kind soul and a gentle heart. In reality I just want what is best but it never gets that far. Yesterday I had a long talk with God and he led me to a lot of places I have never been and led me to a lot of words that I never could speak. I accepted him back in my life yesterday. It isn't magic that all my problems would fade because God puts us through test to let faith prevail. With God on your side where can you go wrong? This isn't just about me because I know there are many people who suffer with series of depression or just not knowing what to do when your back is against the wall. I didn't know what to do until yesterday afternoon. Just pray. Don't worry and have faith as small as a mustard seed and God will see. Just because I accepted him back into my life, I know there are more challenges I will face ahead, and I am ready for what comes my way.

Outie♥

Breezi F.

VMAs 2009

OOOOOO EM GEEEEEEEE!
Tonight is the 2009 Video Music Awards and you know everybody will be giving their peace on what they thought, so of course I am as well. What kicked off VMA was the pre-show red carpet. It wasn't as interesting as the previous pre-shows....WHERE WAS ALL THE FASHION!!?? But I did notice that the thigh high boots are in this fall season cause you did see Shakira!! Uhhh fierce (though her and P!nk are wearing the same dress) but Shakira filled it out better! Uhhhh other than that nothing really stuck out so let's get to the MAiN ATTRACTiON! (I am typing as I am reading so you will get all my first reactions!)

Opening Act:
Uh, I thought Madonna was Hilary Duff for a moment; lol they did look a-like. Anyways, Madonna's trip down memory lane about Michael Jackson was very heartfelt and she said some very poweful statements about passing judgements. Kind of brought a tear to my eye. =( The MJ dance performance was bee-you-te-ful. Many of his popular iconic videos were brought back to life and performed on point. I was really hoping they would've performed Beat It, which I thought so, I did see dancers in the Beat It Jacket. It was kind of obvious that Janet was going to perform Scream which I loved and I like how she performed on stage with her brother for the last time. It looked like she was going to beak into tears at the end but it was a really awesome performance.

MTV Shows

Kanye's Ignorant Act:
Twitter and Facebook has a lot to say and so do I. I was so embarrassed and I felt so bad. Taylor Swift was very happy to win and I wanted to see how she felt. As soon as I thought to myself. "Aw she is so humble and cute---" here come Kanye grabbing the damn mic and expressing to the world how Beyonce should of won. The look on Taylor's face was like "OMG." Was she crying or was it me? All I know is, she may of not had the best video but she is a kid and it isn't her fault she won, MTV arranges this shit. I wonder if Amber Rose was embarrassed for him?

MTV Shows

Performances:
Taylor Swift-I liked it. Unique. At the beginning of the performance it seemed like she was still shaken up a bit about Ye's embarrassing stunt but eventually she did rock out. I was hoping she wasn't going to fall running around the damn subway in heels!!

Lady Gaga-WTF? First and foremost, I didn't know her voice was that AMAZiNG! She was singing LiVE and murdered it!! But the whole blood and hanging herself shit, like c'mon. I am tying, I look up on the screen and my initial reaction was "WTF is going on!!!?" She is um different.


Green Day-I definitely was not paying attention. Sorry. =(

Beyonce`- First off Ne-Yo why you fuck up the introduction, Chase won't finished. Anyways, Bey always puts a great spin on her singles, singing live. She is just an amazing live performer. The whole audience was vibing with her. One of the best of the night, though I did feel like I was at church for a minute with the tambourine and hand claps lol.

Muse-What's a muse? Sounded like Womanizer by Britney for a minute.

P!Nk--I loved it. Another great LIVE performer. Her voice is stunning and she was upside down! Now that's a BB.

Jay-Z-Grand Opening, Gand Closing. Who better than Jay-Z to do so? But did he have to show up all late? Did he even see the show at all. I am happy that he and Alicia are performing. Rep their city.

Russel Brand:
I ♥ him! I absolutely do. I think he is so hilarious and I am happy to have him back this year. I love his jokes and you can't help but to laugh! He even got in on Wayne and all his baby mama's lol.

TWiGHLiGHT:
My Guilty Pleasure. Um, yes I love this saga and was geeked to see the extended trailor! Um Jacob in the movie looks damn good but I am still TEAM Edward. 11.20.09 I will be seeing this. Yeah, this was my officially geek moment. (Sidenote: Sissy we in there!)

Bits N Pieces:
LOL why was Kanye getting booed for real? Diddy knew what he was doing when he said his name that's why he laughed. TAYLOR! TAYLOR! =) Uh where the fuck is Rihanna??? Did you see my girl crush, Megan Fox. Hottness. lol These Eminem and Tracy Morgan skits are hilarious. WHat the fuck is up with Lady Gaga? She is fuckin weird. Glad to see DJ AM get a little tribute via KiD Cudi. Can someone please tell me why Drake did not win Best New Artist? Eminem didnt even announce him as a nominee. Shit, Tracy Morgan should've won time after time. Oh bout time Beyonce` won an award, Happy Kanye? LOL That was so nice of Beyonce for gettin Taylor another Kanye free chance to say her peice. I wanna shed a tear. Bey isn't that bad of a person. ♥'s it. Uh...I haven't seen Ye in awhile, did he get kicked out? =/

Well damn, it's over already!? I can only imagine what the popular celeb sites are going to have about the behind the scenes shit we didn't see. C'mon Perez and MTO! Overall the show was good, better than last year but could of been a lot better. Until next year...

Outie♥

Breezi F.

THANKFUL!!!!

Man oh man, it's like 5:50 in the am and I am W I D E awake. Body is super restless and I can finally say there are about 3 weeks that remain in my pregnancy. I know guys, it seems like I have been pregnant for a year. I am really happy that this journey is coming down to an end. They say pregnancy is a beautiful thing; to each it's own. I just know I will be glad to have normal hormone levels and just go back to enjoying not sharing a body. Last Monday, I had a scare that got me rushed via ambulance to the ER =( I passed out during a weekly check-up and the next thing I knew I woke up to the smell of ammonia and four old white bittys looking in my face panicking. I was calm and felt fine a few moments after I was revived but they insisted rushing me to the ER because my blood pressure dropped severely and they were very concerned for the baby. Seven hours later; I was deemed okay to go home. I know I should be taking it easy but I been busy, busy, busy but that is soon to change! I have about a week and a half and maternity leave; with pay is where I'm at! So that leaves me with barely two weeks to get Liyah's room finished and pack my bag. Also more time to concentrate on these classes I am taking online too and still tackling Gavin when he is home from daycare. Speaking of Daycare, I wish they'd teach him something more than Row Your Boat and The Wheels on the Bus! LOL I swear those are his favorites! I cant wait to see how he adjusts to his new sister, I am sue he'll be a good big brother.

I should be heading back to bed but I can't seem to fall back asleep. I would play Guitar Hero 5 cause ever since I got it last Sunday I been bangin on those drums like their is no tomorrow but its nearly 6 am and the last thing I need is a noise complaint and I only been here barely two months!! My house is finally home: it's almost the way I visioned it to be and sooner or later it'll be my cozy humble abode. Now all I got to do is get my mom to cough up my MacBook and then I'll be good. I'll have to take pics when I can so you all can see my finished project.

For a while now, Life has been really good to me. No scratch that, GOD has been really good to me. All the negative auras have been removed, things are staring to look prospus and yet I didn't ask for much but still received more than I could ever ask. My bills are ahead enough for almost the remainder of the year, living good, my kids are okay and I am content and at peace. My family has been there a lot for me though we had our problems during the beginning of the pregnancy, they have yet to turn their back on me since. I love them sooooo much. Though I still keep to myself, the people I did consider my friends aren't there, but I have gained three old friends and it has been good to catch up and chill with positive people. I used to sit and focus on all the bad things that were happening to me or why the people I once cared about so much aren't here anymore but now I see a lot in a whole nother light and I AM SO THANKFUL!! Whew! You guys just have no idea!

Thank you for the people who have been reading and sending encouragement throughout my pregnancy: though I don't know you all like physically, you guys are my blogger family and definitely wouldn't have made this blog as successful! To my new followers thank you for rocking with me and all the new love! Until next time!

Outie♥
Breezi F.

It's About That Time...

So award show season is coming up and it looks like the MTv Music Awards are up next. ::bites nails:: Reason being that I am a little on edge is because of last year was sort of a flop but happened to have great highlights; such as, Lil' Wayne's peformance (where he highlighted Drake's Money to Blow verse), T.I and Rhianna debuting Live Your Life, Britney Spears winning awards (I actually shed a tear during that time!) and other odds and ends! I am happy that they are going back to NYC's Radio Music Hall because a lot of the better awards were held here, like when Diddy peformed outside in his shiny suits! Take that, take that. I highly believe that there will be plenty of MJ and DJ AM (God rest their souls) tributs, so hopefully it is well put together unlike some other networks ::cough::BET::cough:: Oh and the funniest metrosexual will be hosting again, Mr. Russel Brand!!! I ♥ him. Effin' hilarious. Performances this year include Green Day, Jay-Z, Taylor Swift, and much more. Oh and did I happen to tell you all that Drake is nominted for Best New Artist and has yet to realease his albulm? If that ain't big then I don't know what to tell you!! Oh and Britney may be back this time. I hope they don't tease us like last year, thinking she was going to open the show and totally did not!!! RUDE.

Have you guys been checking out the promotional commercials for the awards? If so, is it just me o is Ne-Yo looking a little sweet in them damn commecials!? SUSPECT. Oh and for the record, no homo, I just ♥ Katy Perry!!!

To read my post from last years awards click HERE!



Outie♥
Breezi F.

Ready? Action!

Ello there people. =)

Tis' journey is almost over.
People are asking more than ever if I am excited about the pregnancy.
I simply reply 'Uh, Not Really.'

It's not that I am not happy about yet another gift from God or ready to be a mom (Sheesh, I have Gavin already so I got this in the bag) it's just I feel my pregnancy was not a happy one, its running neck and neck with my pregnancy two years ago. (So far, this one is in the lead. Not a good look.) I can honestly say that my suroundings and choosing to keep certain company brought my unhappiness. It was always a constant up and down situation. To escape in the past, the problems and people I'd move constantly or react like a mad woman. Reflecting on the course of these last nine months I would have to say my actions have been completely out of character. For awhile now, (like years) I was doing pretty well of not acting upon others ignorance or behaviors but I have found myself lately on top of everything. You ever get that feeling like "If you don't react, it shows weakness but if you do, it'll show your just as ignorant as they are?" I found myself in those type of "if" situations a lot this year. Listening to the "if i were you's" or the unthought out advice of others, and not thinking for myself and how it will affect my future put me in some unsteady situations. It's been about a month or so since I have been living in my new home with my unborn's father. (No, I don't like the term baby-daddy or baby-mama cause it's really ghetto and ignorant.) A month. 30 days. No we aren't together and wont be together, ever. Whatever. We live together because we want a family environment for the kids. Gavin is attached to him and even looked at him as a father in his life. Not only for the kids but when we aren't arguing we get along great. We both enjoy each other's company and running things together, but still not together. Ever again. In this short amount of time, he has threaned to leave once and actually left for about a week the last time. Why? Actions. We have put each other through hell since I had my miscarriage and ended up being pregnant again. We keep dealing with each other but neither can forgive or forget. We are looked upon as stupid for dealing with each other yet embarased of our past actions caused us to be. We used to be friends, best of friends for four years before our relationship and that's where it went down hill. I been twiddling my thumbs for the longest about "if's" what if I never got pregnant again, would I still have my bestfriend better yet my boyfriend back? Or "if" we left each other alone would I still have the people I used to call friends in my life? Even if, I kept, not even I, WE kept our business out the noses of others would so many problems erupt? These are the questions I never will have the answers to. So to prevent future problems I need to go back to thinking before I respond or retaliate against people and even if I am judged or looked upon as weak, I am 22 year-old mom with now her own everything and two kids that need me. Not a relationship, enemies, negativity, or drama should be my focus. The actions I make until I take my last breath will be the correct ones. I don't ever want this to control my happiness or take me out of my element again. Life is like a movie besides the fact there aren't any cuts or do-overs. So make your next move your best move because I know I will, without a doubt.

Outie♥
Breezi F.

A.W.O.L

Absent Without Leave. Sorry guys. =( I have abandoned you all for like two weeks!!! Ugh! A lot has been going on and your girl has been stressed to the max. I have approximately 6 weeks left in my pregnancy (thank God) and I have been in hell. I found myself with no one really to talk to because of a lot of unnecessary drama and he say, she say. So to avoid these peoblems for now so I wont cause any stress to my unborn was to stay distant from a lot of people. When I was distan,t people made their own assumptions and fed off of the word of mouth process. I didn't find the need to discuss much with anyone because I don't need the extra stress. Plain as day, right? Well according to people I am wrong and just a drama queen but yet I've done nothing nor said anything to anyone. Awhile ago I did a blog about friends. I have two lifelong friends, Janay and Danielle. They know me. I am not perfect, I can be at fault but they still don't judge me and they listen. They have the slightest clue of what happened to me nor any details. Instead of calling me out or putting me on blast; they listened. Left with encouraging words and no hurtful. Miles are between us but I am so happy to know that these two are the real deal. I love them and they love me back. I would like to share what they said to me:

Danielle (via Facebook Note):

Dis is a woman (Janay) who when we were younger i did not like her. dats what i told her and jessica...lol, but i did like her. she really was effin kool. and trustworthy to my friend jessica. who introduced us. neway over the years we three have been partners in crime from skating rings to sleep overs to janay comin to my house and eatin all my food. her and jessica junkin up my clean bathroom...lol. but i truly luv them. im writting this cuz i want yall to know how thankful i am to have these two in my life. we are all military bratts. me jessica clayton and janay brown. we never lived close to each other all at the same time. we all moved away to different states and stayed in contact. ALWAYS! neway right now janay is away at college, jessica is in virginia bout to have her second baby, and im in georgia wit my 3 kids. we never get to see each other and i never realized how much i really luv them and really miss them....(o geez im crying) neway i recently came back from fayetteville which by the way i had a horrible time. dealing wit my childrens families and their fathers. (yes i have two baby daddies) i was so so hurt and so alone. it was just me in the car drivin down skibo wit my kids. tryin to figure out what to do to brighten up my evening, not just for me but so my kids know im ok. i decided to just take them to walmart so they could each pick out a toy to take on the trip home. i cried on ever single isle i turned on, but i had my big glasses on so no one knew. not even the kids. they luv walmart they were zoned out neway...lol. all of a sudden i heard someone scream my name...DDAANNIIEELLLLLEE!!! i never in a million years expected to see janay brown in front of me...cheezzin...lol. and ive never in a million years been so overjoyed with happiness and love. her and her mom. i hugged them both as tight as i could and couldnt stop crying. omg. but this is my point- about me jessica and janay. we are all so far away from each other, but when we really really need each other even for just an assurace that we luv each other. we are there. some how some way. and i'm very very thankful to have these two woman in my life. i couldnt get on the road to go back to georgia cuz i was too hurt, but after janay and her mom popped up i was good to go. got back at 3am. i gota stop crying now. and i gotta change my phone number cuz i cant deal wit the other people out ther nemore. i never wanna feel that bad ever again. love you janay. love you jessica.

Janay (via Message & disregard her lack of spelling lol):

hello there love, i'm hoping you have recoperated from that text i set you and are feeling just like your lil side maseage says you think you are ...AWSOME.. i love you and i hope to get to visit your sexy prego self soon and maybe might even be able to go to the hospital when you have the baby, thats what im banking on, but you ahng in there.justs remember you hormone are actin as if they were on acid lol, i was depressed for the last couple of weks myself tryin to get ready for school and haveing work to turn in for my trip to china and just slapt all day, but you have to snap out of it and just pray.. but anywho know that me and Danielle love you very much and danielle is that perfect person to talk to being that she was going through a lil post partum herself at one point. but i love you and i will keep you and the babies in my prayers.

These words from them two picked me back up. And though we don't talk 24/7 nor even know whats going on with one another, I know these two always know what to say. Love you both. And all the folks who read my blog just bare with me cause I haven't been myself lately and I hope soon enough the puzzle of this journey will be completed. Love you guys too!!! =)

Outie♥
Breezi F.

Happy Birthday to Me!

Twenty-two years ago today, I was born!!! Thank you God for allowing me to see another year! Although last year I patied it up with friends, this year is quite suttle since I am 8 months pregnant. So Happy Birthday to all the Leos cause we rock, yay!

Last Year On My Bday:

Outie♥

Breezi F.

Why BET, why?

-Television fo' negroes!

So I was on my Twitter flow (twitter.com/BreeziF) earlier today and just like any nerd I follow celebs as long as well as friends. I seen a twit from the comedian Lil Duval and it said:

i have to ask again: dear keshia coles if u care about us PLEASE don't let the frankie & neffie show air tonite. love lil duval

Talk about somebody weak! Why BET? Why you give them a show? They are super g-h-e-t-t-o! And I was thinking Tiny & Toya was the worst, oh wait there was those other MTv spin-offs Baldwin Hills & Harlem Heights. I am all about Black Entertainment but BET ain't cuttin' it. What happened to the damn music videos! MTv is killin them softly, eventhough they don't show music videos like back in the day, their reality shows are 100% better than what BET cooked up, believe that. Please tell me I am not alone!!!! BET is good for 106 & Park and catching Baby Boy & ATL on Friday nights when there isn't nothing else on the tube! Ya dig?

Outie♥
Breezi F.

Case of the Fake People

Lately, I have found myself extremely aggravated and no, it isn't just because I am pregnant causes me to be moody, its the Case of the Fake People. That's why I am they way I have been lately and I am pretty sure many have taken notice. Honestly, I feel like I have a lack of friends. As I have been referring to myself, lately as the LONER. Coming from me, many are like "Yeah the fuck right." But whatever, it's true. I feel like many people talk to me when it's convenient for them or they have something to say negatively. Then I gotta hear "Why are you distancing yourself?" because I feel a lot of people are being fake. Transparent. For example, if you have know idea WTF is going on in my household and come up with your own opinion, then decided to go and tell a group of people what you think you know about it when in reality you have it all backwards. FAKE. Or when you talk complete shit about someone behind their back, then next thing I know you are chatting it up on the Myspace or hanging out the next day. PHONY. Oh and this is great too, when the person you had a falling out with only hits you up when it is convenient for them, and when they are mad at someone your close with, to be spiteful they contact you. TRANSPARENT. Describing the people who are in my life rather I fuck with them or not. When I am quick to say, "I dont trust anyone" everybody goes into a rage but I rather be a loner than be around people are fake. Yeah it sucks, it really does. I admit, I am a highly suspicious person and I do not put anything past anybody because 9 times out of 10 I am 100% correct. I feel like the people I consider my besties aren't even there. So I question myself, is it my fault that it is the way it is? Partially because it works two ways but then I think about how the conversation ended last time we spoke. Still holding grudges? Damn right because the situation never go its closure when I tried. Last year this time, I was celebrating my 21st (well about too) with my "best friends" at the time and this year we barely speak. One of them I am not even friends with and I think she doesn't even comprehend the extent of what she done nor even apologize but still up to her ways. It's like in the end it goes to show, you have nobody but yourself. I admit I miss it when I could and hang out with everybody but now a days (in the famous words of Enemim) ahem, and I quote:

"Now-a-days eveybody got something to say but nothing comes out when they move their lips, just a bunch of gibberish and mutha fuckers act like they forgot about Breeze."

It is what is. I'd rather just fuck with myself then catch a Case of the Fake People......

Outie♥
Breezi F.
aka
Miss Solo Dolo

So I had a bad day......

.....Today was a fackin' horrible day!!! =(

So I had to work today, which isn't different from my other days I open but the people pissed me off!!! First and foremost I am 32 weeks pregnant as of today. 8 weeks to go, thank the Lord. Secondly, it's 92 degrees outside but inside the mall it's the same. In case you forgot, I am a key holder/2nd assistant at Men's Wearhouse. During the week we are extremely short staffed and it leaves me closing and opening solo, when I shouldn't. What if I went into labor or some shit? Anyways, as soon as I open the gate to my store, I had men waiting to be measured and a couple waiting to register their wedding. I was by myself and wasn't due for help until 1pm when I been there since 930. Pissed off. So I been nonstop since opening. Next this bride to be came in demanding shit and being a smart ass. She had the nerve to try and be a smart ass and says "Must be a cool job that your manager allows you to wear dresses to work." I was wearing a long maxi dress and because I am pregnant the dress fits well. I snapped back "I am a manager, so yes it is." Shut her dumbass up. I also had a group of guys harass me today making sexual advances. I was heated and felt extremely disrespected. I am fucking PREGNANT! No I do not want your damn number. What is up with men thinking they can talk to a female any way. He even went as far as throwing a business card at me while I am working and then said "Must have that good-good to be pregnant!" WTF!!! Then it was a strange guy who kept walking pass my store who finally stopped and pointed at my boobs and was fucking moaning and shit. My manager just looked and thought it was funny. I was pissed off and cursed him smooth the FUCK out!!! My manager says "It's your fault! Guys like a pregnant body and va-jay-jay." No it isn't my fault. I don't give a damn if I was in this bitch naked, no man has the right to degrade or disrespect a female, especially when it is crystal clear she doesn't want to be bothered. So after being disrespected, sexually harassed, and busy as hell, a customer informed me he was awaiting his murder trial and needed a refund because he wont be needing his Tux. WTF! Oh and when it was time for me to clock out, my manager decided to go and get food so guess who stayed to watch the store? Yeah, I don't think I am coming back after maternity leave.......I am going on permanent break. I was too happy to be in my home with my Muffin.

Outie♥
Breezi F

My Life According to Kelis

I saw this post on one of my favorite blogs that I follow, Brother's Blog and I immediately was like I wanna try. His was My Life According to Jay-Z, so I decided to use one of my favorite ladies, Kelis.


Instructions: Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Pass it on to 12 people you like and include me. You can't use the band I used. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think! Repost as "My Life According to (BAND NAME)"

Pick Your Artist: Kelis
Are you a male or female?: Lil Suzy
Describe yourself: Young, Fresh & New
How do you feel: Bossy
Describe where you currently live: Digital World/Wanderland
If you could go anywhere, where would you go: Mars
Your favorite form of transportation: Roller Rink
Your best friend is: Mafia
Your favorite color is: Kaliedoscope
What's the weather like: Perfect Day
Favorite time of the day: In the Morning
If your life was a TV show, what would it be called: Game Show/ Jessica(Kelis) was Here
What is life to you: Marathon
Your relationships: Get Along With You, Good Stuff, Protect My Heart
Your fear:
What is the best advice you have to give: Easy Come, Easy Go
If you could change your name, you would change it to: Millionaire
Thought for the Day: Till the Wheels Fall Off
How I would like to die: Easy Come, Easy Go
My soul's present condition: Glow
My Motto: Fuck Them Bitches

Outie♥
Breezi F