Showing posts with label Thankful. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Thankful. Show all posts

10.11.2009

Introducing Aaliyah

Finally. After all of the drama, anticipation, the highs and lows, my daughter Aaliyah made her debut. She was born on Tuesday, 10.06.09 at 8:44 pm. I fell in love all over again. She is absolutely beautiful and definitely a blessing from God. I am so happy to have her in my life, you guys just don't understand. Liyah and Gavin are my heart! Many people have been asking when am I going to talk about my experience through my blog, and now I finally have time. LOL.

See, what had happen right, Liyah was two days late and I wasn't going to play the waiting game!! So Monday afternoon, My mom, Gavin, and Myself went on a walk for about 45 minutes because they say walking helps out with labor. After my walk all I had was sore thighs, wack. I wanted contractions. So I googled ways to go into labor and I kept hearing people say either sex or Castor Oil. I wasn't in the mood for sex and had no clue what the fack Castor Oil was so I dug a little deeper. A lot of women tried it and went into labor shortly with no problems so I got the bright idea to go buy some Castor oil and see what happens. Sidenote: Castor Oil is this thick, molasses, disgusting medicine that is used when people are constipated lol! So anyways, I bought it came home and mixed two tea spoons with some orange juice. After I downed it, I felt nothing. In mind I was like this shit ain't gonna work!! So I left it alone. Later that night, Acey (my partner) and I went to the movies to Surrogates (Btw, was a good movie!!) and ten minutes into the ending of the movie I started to feel pains at around 11:16 pm. Another ten minutes later I felt the same cramps and realized these are possible contractions! So by the time we got home I was still timing myself and realizing they were roughly ten minutes apart. I called my doctor and was told if they get to five minutes apart to come in. So we went to bed and at that moment I was thinking, I ain't really going into labor cause I can sleep through these. This was around 1 am. I woke up later at 4am because of pains and i know this had to be REAL! I called the nurse and she advised me to come on in. After I was examined and monitored, they decided to keep me and prepare for delivery cause I was at 4cm dilated.

Hours later, I was getting closer to having her and time was going by slow. Contractions were closer together and very strong. I did have an epidural but that thing wore off and I was starting to feel everything! We had a few scares because Liyah's heart rate would go from 125 beats then drop to as low as 90 even lower. With her fluctuating heartbeat, the doctors new she had to be born ASAP. I was given an oxygen mask and even had my bed flipped so my head was near the floor and feet straight up, to get the heart rate going and to prevent the cord from going around her neck. I was about 8cm dilated and they expected her arrival in the next hour.

Acey went to grab a drink and my mom had already left because she had to get Gavin then my nurse went to go check on other patients. Perfect time for everyone to dip because I had to PUSH!!! It was time! I forgot I had a nurses button so I sat and cried through each contraction! Like I felt it all. Finally my weeping caught someones attention and I had like ten doctors and nurses in my room yelling to tell me I gotta push. I didn't want to at all, especially since Acey wasn't there but I had to. After a forced push, Acey was there to my right holding my hand, "Push babe! You have too!!" I felt relieved but i was still scared. After a few pushes, I saw everyone face with a look of concern and I realized the heartbeat machine thingy wasn't beeping. I asked Acey what was wrong but he said nothing was but then he asked Tyler, the nurse what happened. Liyah's heartbeat was very low so I had to get her out! Acey didn't want to get me worked up even more cause I was gone freak the fack out but I knew I had to get her out. Three pushes later, she was here. Alive and healthy.

It's been five days since I had her and life has just got 100 times better. I have two beautiful, healthy kids and a supportive partner. I'm happy that things are going right and I can't wait for what lies ahead. This was a blessing and one experience I'll never forget. I love everyone who has been there and didn't walk away when I needed them the most.

Outie

Breezi F.

9.10.2009

THANKFUL!!!!

Man oh man, it's like 5:50 in the am and I am W I D E awake. Body is super restless and I can finally say there are about 3 weeks that remain in my pregnancy. I know guys, it seems like I have been pregnant for a year. I am really happy that this journey is coming down to an end. They say pregnancy is a beautiful thing; to each it's own. I just know I will be glad to have normal hormone levels and just go back to enjoying not sharing a body. Last Monday, I had a scare that got me rushed via ambulance to the ER =( I passed out during a weekly check-up and the next thing I knew I woke up to the smell of ammonia and four old white bittys looking in my face panicking. I was calm and felt fine a few moments after I was revived but they insisted rushing me to the ER because my blood pressure dropped severely and they were very concerned for the baby. Seven hours later; I was deemed okay to go home. I know I should be taking it easy but I been busy, busy, busy but that is soon to change! I have about a week and a half and maternity leave; with pay is where I'm at! So that leaves me with barely two weeks to get Liyah's room finished and pack my bag. Also more time to concentrate on these classes I am taking online too and still tackling Gavin when he is home from daycare. Speaking of Daycare, I wish they'd teach him something more than Row Your Boat and The Wheels on the Bus! LOL I swear those are his favorites! I cant wait to see how he adjusts to his new sister, I am sue he'll be a good big brother.

I should be heading back to bed but I can't seem to fall back asleep. I would play Guitar Hero 5 cause ever since I got it last Sunday I been bangin on those drums like their is no tomorrow but its nearly 6 am and the last thing I need is a noise complaint and I only been here barely two months!! My house is finally home: it's almost the way I visioned it to be and sooner or later it'll be my cozy humble abode. Now all I got to do is get my mom to cough up my MacBook and then I'll be good. I'll have to take pics when I can so you all can see my finished project.

For a while now, Life has been really good to me. No scratch that, GOD has been really good to me. All the negative auras have been removed, things are staring to look prospus and yet I didn't ask for much but still received more than I could ever ask. My bills are ahead enough for almost the remainder of the year, living good, my kids are okay and I am content and at peace. My family has been there a lot for me though we had our problems during the beginning of the pregnancy, they have yet to turn their back on me since. I love them sooooo much. Though I still keep to myself, the people I did consider my friends aren't there, but I have gained three old friends and it has been good to catch up and chill with positive people. I used to sit and focus on all the bad things that were happening to me or why the people I once cared about so much aren't here anymore but now I see a lot in a whole nother light and I AM SO THANKFUL!! Whew! You guys just have no idea!

Thank you for the people who have been reading and sending encouragement throughout my pregnancy: though I don't know you all like physically, you guys are my blogger family and definitely wouldn't have made this blog as successful! To my new followers thank you for rocking with me and all the new love! Until next time!

Outie♥
Breezi F.