Lately, I have found myself extremely aggravated and no, it isn't just because I am pregnant causes me to be moody, its the Case of the Fake People. That's why I am they way I have been lately and I am pretty sure many have taken notice. Honestly, I feel like I have a lack of friends. As I have been referring to myself, lately as the LONER. Coming from me, many are like "Yeah the fuck right." But whatever, it's true. I feel like many people talk to me when it's convenient for them or they have something to say negatively. Then I gotta hear "Why are you distancing yourself?" because I feel a lot of people are being fake. Transparent. For example, if you have know idea WTF is going on in my household and come up with your own opinion, then decided to go and tell a group of people what you think you know about it when in reality you have it all backwards. FAKE. Or when you talk complete shit about someone behind their back, then next thing I know you are chatting it up on the Myspace or hanging out the next day. PHONY. Oh and this is great too, when the person you had a falling out with only hits you up when it is convenient for them, and when they are mad at someone your close with, to be spiteful they contact you. TRANSPARENT. Describing the people who are in my life rather I fuck with them or not. When I am quick to say, "I dont trust anyone" everybody goes into a rage but I rather be a loner than be around people are fake. Yeah it sucks, it really does. I admit, I am a highly suspicious person and I do not put anything past anybody because 9 times out of 10 I am 100% correct. I feel like the people I consider my besties aren't even there. So I question myself, is it my fault that it is the way it is? Partially because it works two ways but then I think about how the conversation ended last time we spoke. Still holding grudges? Damn right because the situation never go its closure when I tried. Last year this time, I was celebrating my 21st (well about too) with my "best friends" at the time and this year we barely speak. One of them I am not even friends with and I think she doesn't even comprehend the extent of what she done nor even apologize but still up to her ways. It's like in the end it goes to show, you have nobody but yourself. I admit I miss it when I could and hang out with everybody but now a days (in the famous words of Enemim) ahem, and I quote:
"Now-a-days eveybody got something to say but nothing comes out when they move their lips, just a bunch of gibberish and mutha fuckers act like they forgot about Breeze."
It is what is. I'd rather just fuck with myself then catch a Case of the Fake People......
Outie♥
Breezi F.
aka
Miss Solo Dolo
Outie♥
Breezi F.
aka
Miss Solo Dolo
